10000000% this is what she was like. Was not about how much money I had or the price of things, she would want value in me more than anything else. It wasn't about materialistic items, although they are nice and she deserves them, just saw past them.
I loved her in my clothes, not had that before felt really like something, they were big or whatever but she wore them because they made her remember me, and have my smell (even though I stink of methi lol) but she liked it and that meant alot.
I tried to buy her the moon if I could, whenever I'd see something that made me think of her or if she would like it, I would try and get it. I like to think I was alright at the gift giving, I couldn't really afford alot but she didn't care, but I wanted to take her to places and experiences we can share together.
So when she gave me gifts I'd given her over the years back, that hits differently, the emotions attached to them the memories the feelings the sentiment, ohhh my I was knocked down for a long time, crying my eyes out about them. Just looking at them. Our experiences, that's how much I hurt her, everything given back...I don't have it in me just yet to throw them away, I wish she kept them, I wish alot... I wish I could go back to that day.. Its just junk, not worth much, but just priceless in what they were in sentiment. I ruined it all, without speaking and being honest with her.
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